Paris in the fall of 1999. Hotel Ritz. Two years b4 my brother Viktor died. Dad's on the sofa. Mouth open like a young Marlon Brando. Half dreaming, both hands clutching his first edition of à la recherche du temps perdu and mom is out there in the september dusk drinking poison. United in an subtle autumn sadness, me and Viktor make a leash out of moms new blue Hermès scarf and take Viktor's teddy Aloysius for a walk.

Under the Colonne @ Place Vendôme we lay down on the sidewalk and look @ the pigeons and expensive Tanino Crisci shoes that pass by. Then suddenly Viktor holds the teddy up, above my face.
"Promise to never leave me." He says with a theatrical voice pretending it's Aloysius speaking.
"I promise." I say.

13 comments:

  1. My favourite blog post yet. If this was a book I'd never put it down x

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  2. i've always wanted to have a brother. where do you think he is now?

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  3. every word you write is like a needle through my heart.

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  4. are you into astrology? by chance?
    I want to know your b-day, birth place and time u were born...

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  5. Anonymous, will you tell me my future?

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  6. But dear,.....you already know your future.

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  7. yeah, i've HEARD you actually can tell the future! is that true?

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  8. No, I can NOT foretell the FUTURE. The FUTURE has already happened before....somewhere deep, deep, deep in your PAST. Your mind is the scene of the crime, Pneumonia White. Don't let HISTORY repeat itself.

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  9. This isn't MM, but I smell an Aquarius/Scorpio mix going on here.

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  10. rawww: if you're talking about ME, the answer is no. can you?

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  11. YES. do you want me to tell you yours?

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