(clothes: le petit petit. sunglasses: chanel)

I love u

Loved ones. I think u have seen it coming. By the time your read this my life on this blog will be over.

There are many reasons. Most of them just hinted in the vague threats by my lawyer. I tell u, there are MANY things my part of Hollowood don't want the world to know. (And there's no shortage of lawyers here either). And as much as I don't WANT 2 care about those things, I do. I'm spoiled and afraid, and ever since Black disappeared, I'm also lonely.

Also, this blog has grown to big for me. Every DAY I get mails from around the world telling me what a rich bitch I am. And  even WORSE: Everyday I get mails telling me how beautiful I am. How people look up to me. But I am NO Role Model. I'm an anxiety ridden wreck that runs on fantasies and self-loathing.

(There are also other things, weird dreams that started to come alive with this blog, and that I hope will die with it)

All this aside, YOU have changed my life for the better, and THAT I can never repay. If I EVER get my life back, I'll b back, right here, with U, the only place I felt safe, in a long time.

Love and blessings
Pneumonia

93 comments:

  1. NO!!!! i fuckin need you. come back, please! you have to come back.

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  2. Please don't go! :(

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  3. I hope to be able to read your words again someday. Your fantasies, so similar to mine. Self-loathing, no stranger. keep Being, love

    you always wrote beauty & mystery

    xx

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  4. i'll miss you so much darling, i hope you come back. i don't i'll survive without your beautiful writings and photography. your a very talented girl. i wish you all the white magic in the world<333

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  5. Aw, I'm sad to see you go. I hope Black comes back to you.

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  6. no no no :( This makes me so sad, you're one of the truly original bloggers. Come back.

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  7. no! such a sad day in blogger world....

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  8. So sad to see you go!
    Hope you'll be blogging again though! Loved your stories and especially the way you tell them!

    xx

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  9. Your blog really lives fast and die young.
    It is undoubtedly a pity like the death of Kurt Cobain.

    Hope your blog will come alive again. And shimmer like a star again.

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  10. Too bad. I liked your blog. But oh well...

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  11. Bye pneumonia, we'll REALLY miss you....

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  12. I'll miss your words! Your writing is magic!

    Good luck with everything.

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  13. Anya!
    That's great ur life has changed for the better!
    I wish u only the best things in life! and I hope everything will be ok with those things u'r afraid of. u'll cope with it!
    Take care!

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  14. o. i will miss your surreal, dreamy photography-
    no one else has this special quality quite like
    yours...hope black returns, it not then it is
    her loss...try to be good to yourself.

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  15. I wish you well. Hopefully one day I will cross your writings somewhere. You have such a talent in words, it blows me away, I could keep reading forever. love from Finland.

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  16. Oh Anya, don't leave us here alone

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  17. STUPID. This could of been a real success. SERIOUSLY, if you would of kept this up your blog would of only acquired more publicity and fans and thus you probably could of formed a true career. A career in which you became successful by yourself with your own true creativeness not only in your writing but photography too... not just off granny's inheritance. You will never know what could of come from this, a book, a novel series, tv show, maybe even a movie.

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  18. wish you all the best with your life darling...
    <3 you and your magic blog
    xxx

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  19. white, please dont. my mind has been sad not reading you.

    hurry and get your life back,
    Annina
    www.cinchedatthewaist.com

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  20. I miss your posts. I really hope that you will be back one day.

    For now, all the best with everything.
    x

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  21. Oh no, this is so sad... :( Hope you come back soon.
    Thanks for sharing everything.

    love,
    POSE-BLOG.COM

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  22. Well, you asked for it... No?

    I loved your work a lot!

    Virginie

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  23. dont go pneumonia...wtf? your blog is fantastic! this is insanity... this has to be a joke.

    STYLE ANTHEM

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  24. blessings dear one
    be gentle with yourself
    breathe
    xo

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  25. Don't go!

    http://lovestyleblogging.blogspot.com/

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  26. but I only just found you! lament, woe is me! ahhh... hope to see you back again someday soon, you truly are unique and a real blogger with an original voice, which is truly rare considering the large amount of crap out there! good luck and take care xx

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  27. I miss you pneumonia. I was purely addicted to your words and this "cold turkey" demeanour has me showing symptoms similar to a quitting coke-whore.
    I wish you all the best.

    pink27blue.blogspot.com

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  28. I love u COME BACK TO US!
    /Carrie W, you know who

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  29. Come on, White. Don't leave me hangin' like this.

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  30. Good luck miss white, I hope to see you again someday =)

    love, pi*
    http://theperfumerecipe.blogspot.com/

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  31. I just cannot believe you're gone! Best Wishes <3 xx

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  32. but... I love you


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    <3

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  33. Oh dear, i miss you. Take care. :*

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  34. I hope you'll be back soon :) Thx for this blog.

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  35. Beautiful photos!

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  36. Ah, I only discovered your blog today! Such a shame!
    But I understand you. Have fun in the ''real world'' ;)
    xx

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  37. pneumoniawhite ...do not leave i have just discovered your blog n i think am in love whatever or challenges are...o are touching lives here..no man is perfect role models are not.. d reason people love you here is because of who you are...if you tell lies we do not care...think of this do you feel you did not benefit from this blog?....DO NOT END THIS AT ALL..I KNOW I'LL HEAR FROM YOU..

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  38. i lost you,@ find again to realised that you gone. best w from croatia-ineida (ivan)

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  39. Most interesting and original blog in a long time - sad to see you go.

    xx

    www.fridayskid.com

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  41. Lovely babe! Let`s follow each other!
    xoxo

    FashionSpot.ro

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  43. these pics are so beautuful;))
    talented blogger you are;))
    i wait for the next post ;)) kiss, AMY
    THE FASHIONAMY ♥ BLOG

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  44. lovely post, and lovely blog girl!

    love, rach.
    www.so--hi.blogspot.com

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  45. Hey, don't know if you remember me? We used to chat when you first started blogging, then I went AWOL from the bloggosphere for a bit... Back now and more dedicated than ever! I remembered your blog and how amazing it was and am pleased to see you doing SO well :) Do you fancy exchanging blogroll links? Let me know. Would be awesome to connect again.

    HANNAH †
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    ...

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  46. Gorgeous pictures.......

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  49. ARE YOU BACK??? This is so random because I check your blog every so often and I noticed the layout had changed. I MISS YOU

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  51. your header picture changed
    omg your header picture changed
    pls come back White we miss u

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  52. I come back here every once in a while. The banner has changed!! But I'm sad to see these dreadful spam comments... it reminds me how inactive the blog is, when it used to be updated everyday with your mysterious stories and beautiful photographs.

    I hope you come back someday to write. I read your blog when I used to blog here years ago. I took a long break, since, well, blogging is weird and it freaked me out. But writing and creating stories helps create some sort of sense in this world we live in. I recently found sharing my writing (revamped, with a new style, amidst this gaping hole in my chest) with others to be more cathartic than ever before. Anyways, I hope to read your writing here, or somewhere, someday again, when you feel ready. You are a very talented writer and I never forgot you xx

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